I need a thing
One of my closest friends during University plays floor-ball. For my ex-girlfriend Kathryn, it was dance. My old boss at MIT was an incredible artist, with a niche comic book franchise world wide. A lot of the time, I feel like I’m missing my thing. You know, that thing you want to do all the time, and never get bored of. The one that you obsesses over, and are super passionate about. Don’t get me wrong – I have hobbies. I like playing squash, I go to the gym four of five times a week to run or lift weights. I read a lot about politics and current events, and am really in to technology. I’m starting my MBA part time in August and have a full time job. Playing poker and shooting pool always makes me happy. I’ve traveled internationally, and have done a ton of camping and canoeing trips. I guess it just doesn’t seem like any of those are my thing, or that I’m doing them often enough.
I remember in high school, my thing was music. I listened to a ton of it, knew how all the major artists were connected, and played saxophone obsessively. I was good at it, had a ton of people I could play with, and it was great. Jazz band practice for hours every week, the classical quartet, marching band, private lessons, the ska band, jamming randomly with friends in basements. My buddy Nick and I used to skip our lunch periods and play in the music rooms. Then, when I got to University, I stopped making the time and didn’t put in as much effort. I got distracted by school, friends, other priorities – in hindsight – most of them wasteful and self indulgent. I wasn’t in the music department, and soon, the skill curve seemed insurmountable. Now, I can barely read music. I feel embarrassed and guilty. No wonder it doesn’t feel like my thing anymore.
It seems that some people are lucky, and innately know their thing. Photography, a job or business they’re super passionate about and engaged with, a sport or a volunteer organization – there are tons of them. It feels like it’s something very lacking in my life right now. I know it will take hard work, time, effort, and a deliberate thought process. A thing makes life exciting. I could look forward to it, feel energized by it, get inspiration from it, and be creative with it. I need a thing.